Talking with Karen about this trouble we renamed it as not seeing the holiness in everything that is. I worked with the MAGI with this. In bracketing around this I got lost. I started with wanting to see the holiness in all there is, and realized that it was far too big, not something that I even was able to want. The same was true when I put it down to aknowledging when I don’t see the holiness in what is there. That felt unbearable and not kind to myself. In the end I simply landed on: how can I start working with this difficulty to see the holiness in all there is.
I went through the 38 steps and the MAGI gave me an answer: I can start with seeing the holiness in all in me. That was really mindblowing in that moment. Inviting everything in, yes, but seeing all those crap in me as holy is a real challenge. But also a promissing one, and freeing.
Grateful for the MAGI once again!